Things I’ll Never Say

May 25, 2006

Things I'll Never Say-by Avril Lavigne(ok-if you didn't the others you GOTTA this. Please? Especially if your name is Jordan. I never said that)

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it–yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you–away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down–on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It won't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
If it ain't comin out we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it yeah

If I could say what I wanna to say
I'd say I want to blow you-away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I wanna to see
I want to see you go down–on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

What's wrong with my touunge?
These words keep slipping away
I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it–yeah

I quess i'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you–away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down–on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never say

There's just so many things…So many questions. What can I do to make you see, make you see how I really feel? How can I NOT feel this way? Why won't you let me? Why do you look at me that way? Why can't you see the way I look at you? Why don't you care as much as you say you do? Why can't I just tell you how I feel? Why did you lie to me? Why did you do this to me? Why do I have to blame it all on YOU? Why can't I get the guts to just go and ask you? Do you love me? Is it just because I'm scared? No, it's because I know what the answer is, or I think I do, and I don't want to hear it.

Nobody's been commenting on my blog. Sadness. If you've been reading say SOMETHING, please. I know I've said something worth while. And if you haven't you sure as hell better read the two posts before this. Jordan where did you go? I mean you're right there all the time. But I can't talk to you. I don't ever get the chance…

Nobody talks to me anymore. Nicole decided she hates me or something. Sam and Kenzie just talk about what a hypocritical bitch Nicole is and how she should treat her friends better. And while they do that they shun me…Jordan, he's a special case, but I don't get to talk to him much either way. Jordan, is being less of a bitch-good, and we've actually found something we can talk about *coughcough* but she's still torure 😀  That's pretty much everyone I see at school. And none of them really talk to me.

It's the first time I ever felt this lonely, I wish someone would just cure this pain.

Why does Jordan have to be so darn touchy? I make one wrong move and he stops talking to me!! Why oh why oh WHY?! What did I do? I'm not gonna bother saying I never said that, I did you're being a jerk evil and I don't why. And it HURTS, do you get that? You don't have to be HURTFUL for me to understand you. I'll listen to you just because of who you are. And I'm 5'3 I don't THINK you're taller than me, last I checked you weren't, but I've been wrong more than once, and if you want me to say sorry one more time, well here it is. I'm SORRY. Sorry, for falling in love, sorry for saying yes, for being myself, sorry for being so sensitive, sorry for everything I could've ever done to you and even what I didn't do. Are you happy now?

Note: If you didn't read the scratched out stuff go do that now. On ALL of my posts. *hint hint, nudge nudge**Sniff*

-Jessica lynn

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2 Responses to “Things I’ll Never Say”

  1. crazyguy1292 said

    if you want people to read it you shouldn’t scratch it out silly

  2. yeah babe, you’re right. There’s a lot of things I shouldn’t’ve done

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