I guess I better wake up then…

August 7, 2007

Guess I better get going, guess I better move along now, find my own way.

Bessa-Tilly and the Wall

Morning came and I tried not to notice.
It was time for you to move along.
And The minutes fell like petals all around us,
Like a goodbye kiss when goodbye felt so wrong.
So you better get going,
You better move along now,
You better run off then and make yourself scarce.
These few days I have decided to be lazy.
They don’t move or seem to end at all,
And my heart it is close enough to breaking
That it hurts just listening to your songs.

So you better get going,
You better move along now,
You better run off then and make yourself scarce.
Yeah,
You better get going,
You better move along now,
You better run off then and make yourself scarce.

It’s been while now since you left,
And I can’t seem to shake this lonely mood.
When the time comes, I’ll try my best not to tell you:
Please don’t leave again. Please, don’t leave again.
I guess I’ll say it now then.
Please don’t leave me again.

Since it’s all I have I want to go to sleep,
And dream of you and me just off the coast.
On a holiday so long and warm and lucky,
Always wake up in my bedroom all alone.

Guess I better wake up then,
Guess I better get going,
Guess I better run along now, and find my own way.
Yeah,
Guess I better wake up then,
Guess I better get going,
Guess I better move on now, and find my own way.
Guess I better wake up then,
Guess I better get going,
Guess I better move on now, and find my own way.
Guess I better wake up then,
Guess I better get going,
Guess I better move on now, and find my own way.

You know what finally hit me, about 24 hours late, but at least I realised it. Dunno if he has yet though. Lemme backtrack and help you out some here.

Wyatt told me once I was the only girl he would ever like, and that if there was no me, there wouldn’t be another girl. Well, something along those lines, you can’t expact me to remember everything word-for-word. But anyways, now he should know that there’s other girls, that he’ll like, that’ll like him back…girls that aren’t me. I knew it would happen sooner or later, but god, I was really hoping it’d be later rather than sooner.

Well, at least I had those six months. It’s more than I could’ve ever really hoped for. Or at least, more than I should’ve ever hoped for. I’ll go back to life, happier in general, but a little sader, on the inside. I just wish…I could’ve seen him before school started back up. Because god knows he’ll meet someone that catches his eye there, and she won’t be able to resist.

Yeah, I know I’m acting pretty damn pessimistic, like it’s already over. But…I can’t really help it. Even if it’s not Chelsea, there’s other people. Other girls. And you, some of ’em are better than me. And there’s not a damned thing I can about it. Unless you count fighting like mad and making his life hell. Or I can be a good girlfriend, accept life, and let him go. Which is what’s going to happen. Sooner or later. Sooner than I’d like.

Maybe, things will look better in the morning, that’s what I told myself last night you know. And…well, I’ll just keep thinking that, telling myself that, until I’ve got to face whatever the truth is. I mean, there’s nothing wrong with living a lie if you don’t know the truth, right?

-Jessica lynn

Sometime, I’m gonna work on being Jordan, permanently. She’s a better person than the girl I pretend to be the rest of the year.

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3 Responses to “I guess I better wake up then…”

  1. that guy said

    it cant be as bad as it seems… just hang in there for me

  2. crazyguy1292 said

    Never leave me baby, please. No one “caught my eye”, all the people at WV hate me, it’s like how you reacted to me in 7th grade… yeah, that bad
    I waited for you, hon, there’s never been another girl or anything, there’s only ever been you

  3. crazyguy1292 said

    wtf is that guy? (where the w takes who instead of what)

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